Akiko0o

Yesterday I watched the movie "Rise of the Guardians" and I think I have a crush on Jack Frost now!! There will probably be some fanart of him up later!!

So I found this, and I cried. And don't click it away, just read.

"Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this.

You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you're asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that "Mommy is crying and sissy won't wake up."

Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying.

The next day at school, there's an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can't handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She's in shock. She can't believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out.

It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone's crying, your little brother still doesn't know you killed yourself, he's too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days.
It's two years later. Most of the kids from school to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn't succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day.

People care.
You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don't just effect you. They effect everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we've NEVER talked before,
I'm here for you.
♥ It hurts. Things do eventually get better. don't give up. ♥

Copy and paste this as your journal to show people there are people out there that care."

I can be so stupid at times, but the problem is I have only myself to thank.. If I had just begun studying sooner I wouldn't have had this problem...
--" And now I just have to deal with the consequences, stupid German.. Thank god I'm good in french!! I just wanted to get that of my chest! :0 Thanks for reading if you did!!

So it has been a VERY busy week, I had some pretty important tests this week.. Some of which were terribly difficult. Usually I am a very good student, but I'm now having a period were I'm getting some pretty bad grates.. And that sucks, especially when I studied really hard! :c Luckily, the week is almost over and then I will have no test for a while, yippee!!
And on the lighter side: I discovered my new favorite noodle soup!! *^* It tastes like paprika chips? (don't ask how )

So yeah..
This has been my first week on DA, and I love it so far! I really can't believe how many super talented artists there are here.. It kinda makes me feel like "I should probably come back in a few years and then submit my drawings" but on the other hand I feel very inspired to get better and make greater art.
Now a little bit more about me! ^^ So my name is Celine, I'm 15 years old and I live in the Netherlands but I'm Portuguese. I started to draw "manga" (I say that with quotes because it wasn't really that good.. ) probably a year or three ago, nothing special.
Last year I really started to draw. That was because I was in a new class and I met a girl there who drew manga too, she was really shy but also very nice! We soon started to draw together. Most of the time I wouldn't want to show my drawings because hers always were waaay better.. So what we would do is: she would do the line art and I would color and shade it.
I was very happy to have it like that, but sometimes I would see her draw something and think "Hmmm, I would have done it like so". And that's where I begun to draw again.
Now, Sara and me are best friends. She has had the flue for the last two days and it has been really boring at school without her..

So.. This is a bit about myself!! Thank you very much for reading if you did!!